Today I realized something for the very first time : A chapter in my life is about to end and I’m not going to lie, I freaked out. Because in 10 weeks, a new chapter is going to start and another one is going to end… Forever !
I never felt more confused than now : I’m going to go to school for the last time in my life and all I can really think of is how much I’m going to miss my friends once we leave this place that gathered us for over 4 years now.
All this makes me realize how confortable my life is right now, and also makes me wonder about what I really want to do in the near future, after this last semester in the National School of Trade and Management comes to an end.
The truth is that I know what I want in life but I don’t know where to start… Yet !
I guess I still need something to help me understand what it is that I need to do. But as for now, I am very happy about everything, I’m grateful for being right where I am right now and I wouldn’t change it for anything 😀
On the other hand, feeling kind of lost makes me feel more alive than ever. It hurts my mind to think, it makes me consider what I want to achieve in life and keeps me grounded and wanting more and more from life…
You see, not having control over everything around me and looking at the near future like a big void to jump in seems like a blessing to me and I think that’s what life is all about: Do you want to see yourself as a person who is lost, confused and feel sorry for yourself ? Or do you want to see yourself as a person that has everything ahead, free, fearless, grateful and living for the present moment ?
I choose the latter.
A new chapter is going to end in my life and another one is going to start. In 10 weeks from now, I’ll walk through the doors of my school for the last time and I’m not going to lie: I can’t wait for that day to come and I feel that there’s nothing better than life to enjoy and that’s why I can’t wait to discover what’s coming next…